I cry myself to sleep

I cry myself to sleep another night wanting to die and give up the fight i pushed you away im scared to say you wont be with me another day.. i wished i didnt break your heart.. it kills me everytime we're apart i need u back in my life i want you to be my futuare wife.. i try to come and spend some time but when i try i get denied im sorry if u think i lied.. sometimes i wish we could rewind go back to a time when things we're fine but soon ill be a distant memory the one who loved. You left behind...